Medication

This post is gonna be about medication.

I take a few tablets a day plus inhalers, I also take supplements. I've took inhalers for most of my life; I've been taking tablets for the past few years. In that time I've been on a few different kinds, mostly antidepressants, one anxiolytic, one antipsychotic and one for high blood pressure. At the moment I take Risperidone 0.5 mg 3 times a day (2 in the morning, 1 at night), Mirtazapine 15 mg at night and Ramipril 2.5 mg in the morning. The Risperidone is an antipsychotic for hallucinations, paranoia and anxiety, the Mirtazapine is an antidepressant for anxiety and depression and the Ramipril is for high blood pressure. I've been taking Risperidone for a year now and at first it was really helpful but I've started to tolerate it more and more however it's raised my prolactin levels. I've also been taking Ramipril for a year. I found out I had/have high blood pressure after seeing my doctor for concussion, wouldn't have known otherwise. I've now been taking Mirtazapine for a week and wow, it's powerful. I'm starting to tolerate it a bit which is good but I keep having to lie down still.

I feel like a fraud, like there's nothing really wrong with me and I'm taking drugs for no purpose but there is, there really is and the medication helps, a lot but still, I'm ill (how bad I'd be without it is kinda scary).