a mixed episode; very annoying. It's slightly more annoying that Idk whether I can refer to it as one or not because Idk whether I am bipolar or not. Then I start thinking I mustn't be because I'd have been commited by now or been to jail or something "typical" of bipolar but then again I've come across other people who think they have it but aren't that bad. I just thought as well that maybe I'm catching it early because the onset is usually between adolescence and mid twenties. I actually think I had it as a child though; I got upset very easily and I used to laugh hysterically at things. I remember being in school (when I was hardly ever there) I went from "always being happy" in year 7 to "always being miserable" in years 10 and 11 :/. Although there were changes in between of course. Sometimes I liked school but most of the time I didn't. Actually yeah it does make sense, I said last night I'm regressing to things I used to do when I was 14. I won't go into detail but yeah, nothing bad; well not that bad. Lol, I did some weird things as a kid though, well not weird just, experimental ;). I was rather reckless in a controlled sense lol, a combination of that mixed with OCD probably; how frivolous ;D. Wow I'm becoming more and more Victorian every day :s lol.
I can't wait to find out I am. It will show me how important I am to some people in a sense although I don't know that many people but still. If they're willing to change then it will be so amazing and I'll be so grateful but if they're not then, I'll move on with my life and gain true independence :).
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